Monday, November 25, 2013

short reunion~

Assalamualaikum.
last friday, I went to an event in permatapintar.
kind of a short reunion kowt?
almost half of the batch were there.


then,
I just got so boring and feel so alone.
I feel that I have become distant with them.
everyone's like talking to each other
but me got isolated.

idk why but I did try to have a good chat with them,
i mean, we're schoolmates pun..
but then, the conversation was so short.
after that, i just watched the heirs, of course.

i mean no one pay attention to me.
better if I just indulge myself in the drama.
but someone said that I should socialize myself.
but what can i do kan?
i was under 'that' sort of circumstances.


rather than feeling gloomy and moody,
I was trying to enlighten myself by watching
korean drama.

most people think that i am someone who really
love watching korean drama.
well, that's quite true,
but actually I was running away.
away from all the silence
because people don't talk to me.

i'm nt sombong or mr arrogant.
I just have some ego.
I couldn't start conversation if others don't start first.
i get awkward easily if I do that.
haha!


i guess i'm not coming to any reunion in the near future,
if my ex-classmates weren't there.
i hate the feeling of being alone.
i mean, people don't usually get alone,
just because they want to.
sometimes, forever alone is good
but not most of the time.

well, that's it.
so da~
sekian, terima kasih. ;)

hc???

Assalamualaikum.
sungguh berhabuk tempat ni..
haha!


well,
 i wasn't so busy pun..
just that i have some stuff to do.

i'm currently working on the group research.
it's part of bridging program for medic student
from asasipintar jan intake.

apart from that,
i've had meetings for HC..
some of the activity that i join
are cinta rasul, tasik kenyir, larian autisme,
as well as another program abt enterpreneurship.


the first 3, i am working under EXCO multimedia.
i'm nt that creative but the thing that I love to do is,
being a photographer.
and it's considered under multimedia.
so I have to join the exco je la kan?

I believe in doing things that I love,
because I can do it right if I'm passionate.
Also, I will not grow bored easily since
photography is what I really like.

anyway, that's it.
so,da~
sekian, terima kasih. ;)


Saturday, September 28, 2013

new chapter~

Assalamualaikum.
well, it's been a while since i updated this blog.
u can expect to see spider webs here..
haha!!

     these are all asasipintar's, may and jan intakes~

life has been hectic, actually.
it all started after i got the offer letter.
nt literally that i received them.
i just found out abt it from the internet..

u see,
when u expect too much,
u'll get frustrated when it didn't turn
out the way u want it to be.
then when u start to accept the heartbroken
facts,
suddenly what u expected earlier really happen.

     permatapintar's in ktsn~

that's what i felt when i know i could
enroll into medical school, this year.

at first,
the admin said that all of us can start
our degree a year earlier.
then, they said that it can't be accomplished.
the reason given was because we are still immature.
(only for medicine, dentistry and pharmacy)

     our small reunion...

that time, i was frustrated.
bt i learned to accept.
i mean, i'll get extra holiday la kan??
that's a good thing..
after 2 weeks of relaxing at home,
we were asked to check the offer letter, online.
there it was.
we had to enroll this yr.
and guess what,
we knew abt it like, 3 days b4 we need to register.
we can't really complete the registration procedure,
and we were labeled as 'problematic student'

       meet my PBL group.

even our names weren't in most of the name list.
like the PBL group, MPG and so on..
that's why we kept being with each other,
it'll be easy when something happen,
all of us are together to report on particular things.

and they labeled that we were being proud,
not mingling around with everyone.
haishhh...

after a while,
we did try that.
but i think, our coursemates were skeptical abt us.
maybe they felt insecure abt us being younger than them,
idk, they didn't tell us.

     me at empangan apa ntah nama dia..

i mean, in front of us,
they were like,
"ouh, u guys are young..blablabla"
being so warm and kind.
guess that's just a mask that they wear.

i'm nt trying to point out or badmouth people,
but what do u feel when,
u were walking, maybe to class or cafe,
suddenly u heard somebody that were nice to u,
talking these ways,
"budak2 asasipintar ni macam ni.....blablabla..
permatapintar.... diorang tu dah la blablabla..."

it's obvious that they didn't like us.
of course u don't do things that will annoy them, right?
however, bear in mind!
not all my coursemates are like that.
some are nice.
we don't have problem to socialize ourselves.
maklumlah, hidup berkomuniti kan..

well,
i'm still trying to adapt myself.
trying to study when i have time.
being kinder and warmer,
yup,
all those good stuffs,
in sya Allah.

        this was taken at taman tasik titiwangsa...

that's it la.
regarding university life...
i'm not talking big here,
but since i've been with ukm for 3 yrs,
it feels the same.
since form 4, the teachers don't really spoonfed us,

a month before spm,
there was no intensive class or whatsoever,
we just studied on our own.
and with the help of friends, of course.
u should understand that we've been together
since form 4 until asasipintar.
it's quite a long time,
u can expect how strong our bond is.

it's the start of a new chapter,
new books,
new journey,
new semester,
with new people,
nt to forget the old ones..
Fighting!!


aidilfitri2013~

Assalamualaikum..
well, it's raya!!
yeah!!


just got back from kampung..
it was tiring.
the assignments were left, untouched..
what to do..
so lazy ma..
everyone is in raya mode..
how could i be in study mode, durh~


anyway,
it's the first time,
they said me getting bigger...
haha!!
usually, they said that i was getting, u know,
less fat?
hahaha!!

bt as usual,
many people said,
"yg kedua lagi besar dari kakak dia"
translated in jawa,
"sing loro gedhe"
hahaha!!
i know, it sounds funny.

my abah also said,
i'm getting chubbier..
haha!!
i told my family,
i am leading a happy life..
less stress..
that's why i'm becoming bigger.
lalala~


i mean, seriously..
my stress has lessen,
and i've got no worries too..
and i've been eating and munching,
most of the time..
haha!!


Sunday, August 11, 2013

ramadan 2013,done~

Assalamualaikum.
well, alhamdulillah.
ramadan 2013 is done.
finished.
i hope that every good deeds
that i've done in the sacred month,
will be accepted, in sya Allah.


skipped 8 days this yr.
(uknowwhy)
and alhamdulillah..
diidn't miss tarawih, though...
except fr the days that i couldn't..
of course i didn't la kan..

even though i performed tarawih
with jemaah fr only twice,
bt it's good enough, though.
at least, i did it on my own.
haha!

usually,
people lose weight in fasting month.
bt this yr is an exception fr me.
haha!gain weight of course..


well, went to hukm 4 times..
bought kfc and subway twice,
and went to bazar once during the trip.
that's one of the reason that i gained weight.
lalala~

and went to burger bakar twice fr breaking fast.
went to bazar in bangi twice also..
making trips to malls like mid valley and mines..
and breaking fast there..
so what do u expect?
of course la, the aftermath: heavier and fatter..


and nt to mention the moreh as well..
haha!!
reducing weight failed~

anyway,
i pray that i'll get to meet the next ramadan.
in sya Allah.

so,da~
sekian, terima kasih. ;)



Wednesday, July 17, 2013

home sweet home~

Assalamualaikum..
it's full of dust here..


*blow *blow
well, it's better now..
hihi!!

went back home a few days ago.
it was great.
got plenty of food la..
and not the junk food, though..
they're food that can make me full..
haha!!


people say,
it's more meaningful if u can fast at home,
together with ur family.
well, i admit that's true,
but i think if u're not fasting (if u get what i mean),
and u're at home,
it might be better too!!

got plenty of food,
so what?
at the hostel,
u can't have that kind of food.
therefore, indulge in them..
hihi!!


and the fact that it's ramadan now,
it made me remember about something.
well, i forgot things easily
since my memory ain't that good,
but i will remember the one that left me
quite a big impression..
haha!!


well,
i did say that i won't do 'that' again, right?
i hope that i won't..
really hope so..
in sya Allah..

anyway,
i hope that this will be the time,
for a hijrah..
it's gonna be hard to become a better person,
but i gotta try, right?

well,
that's it. so,da~
sekian, terima kasih. ;)

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

puasa3~

Assalamualaikum.
Ramadan is coming!!!
in 13 days, yeah!!
idk if i can get through it or not,
but let's just hope that i will,
in sya Allah..


alhamdulillah,
done qada' my puasa,
barely yesterday..
haha! i know.
i was procrastinating.

since 2 months ago kowt,
all that's left is just 1 day
bt i keep on,
"nanti la dulu.."
"sempat lagi ni.."
nasib baik lah sempat..
hihi!

well, life's been busy.
so that's why i rarely post anything here.
and got nothing to say.
haha!

so,da~
sekian, terima kasih. ;)